On Fire For Christ: A Testimony

Before I share my testimony, kindly allow me to share what Jesus means to me.

Jesus is my absolute everything!! My relationship with Him is more important than any relationship in my life. More important than any relationship I will ever have including with my future wife and kids. Because without Jesus, I could never know how to love. It’s from the overflow of the Love of Christ that I’m able to love my fellow man. So for me, having a relationship with Jesus means everything to me!! It’s the anchor of my life and my soul. I am nothing without Him!! I have nothing without Him!! I can do nothing without Him!! This life has no meaning without Jesus Christ!! Without Him, I’m just an empty shell. A pile of bones.

I know very well that if it were not for the mercies and the grace of God, I would be a pile of bones by now. I would be in eternal torment right now. It brings me to tears when I think about how much I never wanted anything to do with Him but He fought tooth and nail to save me. He died for me!! And that’s before I knew Him, when I was still in sin and shame!! There’s no greater love than this. And for that, there’s nothing I wouldn’t do for Him by His grace.

The life I live now is not my own. If by His grace I do get married and become a father and a husband, I want to be an example to the world of what God designed marriage to be. I want to love my wife and my kids the way Christ loves me. To cover them in prayer, protect them, provide for them, and to lead them the way Jesus and the sweet Holy Spirit lead me every single day. And to imagine there was a time I thought getting married and having kids was a prison sentence.

How God changes people!

Anyway, I digress, like I was saying, I live only for two things. To please the Lord and bring Him glory. I never ever want to live a life that doesn’t please Him or bring Him glory. He died that I would live. So I ought to die every day so that He can live in me.

If I should get married and have kids, if I should have a global ministry, if I should have a global conglomerate, if I should become the richest man on earth, if I should become the most powerful King to ever live, if I should become famous and all men know my name, if I should discover the cure to cancer and end famine and drought, if I should end all wars and bring about global peace, without Jesus, all this would mean nothing!!

Without Jesus, it’s absolutely meaningless!!

I would rather be a nobody and have Christ, than gain the whole world without Christ. But it would be better to gain the whole world for Christ. Maybe then we can fix a piece of this broken world and have an impact on a generation. For in everything you do the scripture says, do it unto the Glory of God.

Living for Christ the last 8 years, 7 months has been the honor of my life. Serving in the Lord’s vineyard has been my greatest pleasure. And I wouldn’t have it any other way. Whether in riches or lack, whether in sickness or health, whether in fame or obscurity, whether in pain or pleasure, serving Jesus remains my life’s greatest honor. In all things I’ve learnt to be content. In all things I’ve learnt to trust the savior of my life. That He who began a good work in me is able to complete it. That no matter what comes my way in this life, He will never leave me nor forsake me. He will be with me till the end of age. For I know in whom I have believed and I am persuaded that He’s well able. He’s my Rock and my salvation. He’s my refuge and my strength. He’s my hope and my future. In Him I have life and life more abundantly. In Him, I am safe and secure and nothing shall by no means harm me. For if God be for me, who can be against me. For I am fully persuaded that nothing can separate me from the love of Christ.

A love that has no bounds, no words can describe, no mind can fathom and no heart can contain. An overwhelming love. An incomprehensible love. A beautiful love. A holy love. Jesus is that love. And in Christ Jesus I am loved.

But I was not always like this.

When God found me, I was ready to kill myself. I thought about it every day. I was deep in sin and addiction. Pornography, lust, fornication, masturbation, weed, alcohol, partying. I was bound in witchcraft, irresponsibility, anti-marriage spirit, poverty, depression, uncontrollable anger, and all sorts of self-sabotaging behavior. The devil had me right where He wanted me. He had completely choked the call of God on my life. All I wanted was for it to end.

This was me in December 2014.

My turnaround moment came in the most unusual of ways. I was framed for a crime I didn’t commit by a very close friend and was probably going to spend a long time behind bars. Not knowing what to do and because I had been a Christian in my teenage years, I cried out to God for mercy. I prayed to Him in a police station and asked Him to help me get out of the mess I was in. And if He did, I would give my life to Him again and serve Him for as long as I lived. And God did the unimaginable. In just three days I was free and clear. I remembered my promise and rededicated my life to Him. I wanted to live for Him from this point on and asked Him to help me. He put a hunger [for Him] in me that to this day, has never been satisfied. I sought Him with all I had. So much so that the life I had fell apart.

I lost all my friends, my family shunned me, and I lost all my income and possessions. At some point I became homeless. But all I wanted was Jesus. I was willing to lose everything including my life for Him. In this wilderness period, I was healed, delivered, and set free from every stronghold the devil had put on me. I experienced the love of God in ways words cannot express. God gave me an identity that was rooted in Him. Not in worldly possessions, or fame, or a person or an achievement or a relationship. He made me know Him as a father, a friend, a lover, my Lord and King.

And as if this was not enough…

He gave me a glorious destiny in Him. A purpose and calling to live for. He revealed to me what He had put me on earth to do. The reason He fought so hard to get me and the reason the devil wanted so badly to take me out. He restored my relationship with my family, gave me a home and put me on the path to a life of purpose and fulfillment. Now all I know is His love, joy and peace. And if I do nothing else with my life, may my generation see what Jesus can do with a life surrendered to Him.

This is the hope of my calling in Christ Jesus.

That all may know that with God nothing is impossible. Now all I want is to know Him more than I have before. My hunger for His presence burns in me like wildfire. My zeal for His kingdom has utterly consumed me. I live only for Him. To see this gospel of the Kingdom preached in all the world. To see a mighty revival fall in this generation like we’ve never experienced before. To see His Kingdom come. His fire rages deep within me and I will not rest until I see revival in my time. By His mighty Holy Spirit and in the name of Jesus.

And when I have served the purposes of God in my generation, I will rest with my fathers and go back home to my Lord and King. May this be the story written of my life. That Paul lived a life of service. He found God and served the purposes of God for His generation. Then He went home to be with the Lord. This is my story. This is my testimony. In Christ alone, the love of my life, my hope is found. In Jesus’ name Amen!! Paul, a servant of Jesus Christ and a member of His Royal family. Shalom.